Self doubt

Sometimes I wonder why raising two kids is so hard. I wonder if I am doing more damage than good. I doubt that my kids are getting enough of my attention. I doubt my ability to raise my kids and be a working mom. Why do you ask that a very funny and very confident Ketrina, I am refering to myself in 3rd person for dramatics, is starting to doubt my abilities? I have a very activie and tantrum throwing 17 month old. My 3 year old likes to sing loudly during these tantrums. Isn't that enough to make anybody doubt. Right? I just want to be the best mom that I can be. I kinda drive my family a little batty because I always call home, west memphis home. I just get over whelmed and want to be grounded. I think it is funny that I spent most of my childhood wanting to be an adult and now that I am an adult who has to be very responsible all I want is my carefree childhood back. Crazy right. Now don't get me wrong. I love Olivia and Jackson. Watching them play and listening to them laugh makes me very happy. I love when Jack is being sweet and Olivia is being so loving. I keep praying that I will make all the right choices. I want to teach them the values that I hold true. I want Olivia and Jackson to grow up loving God and making good choices. But right now I guess I will have to settle for food on the floor and hearing twinkle twinkle little star sung at the top of Olivia's lungs. When I start doubting I am always reminded that I really do have good normal children. All kids through tantrums, if yours don't I don't want to know. I am very blessed with a husband that loves me and our children who happen to be the two coolest kids I know. Thanks this was a good chat:)