Self doubt

Sometimes I wonder why raising two kids is so hard. I wonder if I am doing more damage than good. I doubt that my kids are getting enough of my attention. I doubt my ability to raise my kids and be a working mom. Why do you ask that a very funny and very confident Ketrina, I am refering to myself in 3rd person for dramatics, is starting to doubt my abilities? I have a very activie and tantrum throwing 17 month old. My 3 year old likes to sing loudly during these tantrums. Isn't that enough to make anybody doubt. Right? I just want to be the best mom that I can be. I kinda drive my family a little batty because I always call home, west memphis home. I just get over whelmed and want to be grounded. I think it is funny that I spent most of my childhood wanting to be an adult and now that I am an adult who has to be very responsible all I want is my carefree childhood back. Crazy right. Now don't get me wrong. I love Olivia and Jackson. Watching them play and listening to them laugh makes me very happy. I love when Jack is being sweet and Olivia is being so loving. I keep praying that I will make all the right choices. I want to teach them the values that I hold true. I want Olivia and Jackson to grow up loving God and making good choices. But right now I guess I will have to settle for food on the floor and hearing twinkle twinkle little star sung at the top of Olivia's lungs. When I start doubting I am always reminded that I really do have good normal children. All kids through tantrums, if yours don't I don't want to know. I am very blessed with a husband that loves me and our children who happen to be the two coolest kids I know. Thanks this was a good chat:)

Halloween

Halloween 2008 Olivia was Mary and Jackson was my sweet little lamb. We heard that song over and over. She is so sweet and got completely into character by calling Jackson little lamb. She was so excited to have her cousins Mackenzie and Kendall come to Columbia to go trick or treating with her.

The most precious pumpkin in the patch. Kendall Rhea 9 months.

Ta Da Introducing Mackenzie and Olivia...who knew Barbie cheerleaders and Mary were friends.

We had a fun Halloween night and enjoyed our first real trick or treating experience. The neighbors all loved our little ones.